Yesterday was a day of celebration [but isn't everyday?]... but aside from that, I got to thinking a lot. Listening to my music in the car on my way to work, I cried a little... driving back home, I cried some more. I wasn't bawling. Thinking that the month of May is Alec's birthday, and also my sister Medina's on the 26th, but she won't get to celebrate hers anymore. I remember the pictures that was taken last year on her birthday with her 2 sons and my brother... her being thin as a rail yet putting up a brave smile that could warm anyone's heart. But maybe that was just part of the reason why.....
The Game of Life... How often do you play? Do you play enough? Are you paying enough attention? I ask myself similiar questions every day. Remembering a moment when you were really, really happy... and do you recall an incident when everything made you sad? Sometimes I don't wish to crave for any of it... so it seems. Like I said before, I would just like to be somewhere in the middle.
A blogger friend of mine in response to my email the other day, saying that he's a 'seeker of the truth'. I used to think that about myself... but then I got to thinking again, that truth isn't something - even as a concept - that one can truly grasp. I'm beginning to realize that I'm more of a seeker of the 'unknown'... for a lack of a better word. And isn't the ultimate truth is what's happening - now? Right this moment?
I'm not trying to be philosophical or anything remotely like that, I'm just thinking out loud. Maybe I was a happier self then, or even him... I'm okay - truth be now - and that's good enough for me.
I listen to this particular track almost every time when I'm alone in my car. Even though I haven't the slightest idea on what they're saying, somehow it soothes me. And I come back to it again and again... Happysad.
Thanks again for visiting, as always. Have a wonderful and a safe weekend everyone. Catch you all next week! xoxo
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Currently listening:
Chant 14 - Track 3
Comments (14)
i can't hear the music.....?
boo hoo
i know what you mean happysad
or sadhappy
;o)
;0(
Posted by pod | May 9, 2007 3:25 PM
Posted on May 9, 2007 15:25
Just curious, when did the lifeisbittersweet exist? That's nice that you open up to both the happy and the sad parts of life.
Reading this touched me in a way I can't even explain....Thanks for that
Posted by Kris | May 9, 2007 8:49 AM
Posted on May 9, 2007 08:49
Your sister is blessed to have a brother like you who will always carry her with him (and for a million other reasons too). xoxoxox
Posted by Dr.P | May 7, 2007 4:54 PM
Posted on May 7, 2007 16:54
"Now" is the gift box that the "Present" comes in.
I'm glad you take the time to feel joy and pleasure as well as sadness. Live life to its fullest!
Posted by gurustu | May 7, 2007 2:36 PM
Posted on May 7, 2007 14:36
Think we all have those things that soothe us and place us in a realm of centeredness where we can reflect on things. I know I do. It's what helps us with life's journey and what helps us mature with each passing day.
Posted by Tony | May 7, 2007 8:57 AM
Posted on May 7, 2007 08:57
My friend - the search for "truth" is an illusion, it is a trap. The only truth is right here and right now. It is all that can ever be known.
Posted by Jeffrey Zacko-Smith | May 6, 2007 9:48 AM
Posted on May 6, 2007 09:48
at the moment, i'm trying to readjust my seat in this theatre of life. life is like a circus, an omnitheatre, a studium. there's lots happening around you. whether u're the audience, the player or the compere. hugs to u darling.
Posted by jenn | May 6, 2007 6:30 AM
Posted on May 6, 2007 06:30
"Seeker of the Truth"? What a crazy thing to say! I guess I'm allowed to say that! :D
There's only one thing that I'm sure of, and that is "I am". This I know for sure, but everything else can all be make-believe for all I know. :)
I must really thank you for the music. It's helping with the sleep I need to catch in day because I'm working nights this weekend... Much appreciated!
Posted by alkam | May 6, 2007 5:26 AM
Posted on May 6, 2007 05:26
you have a good weekend too dearie..
Posted by Urspo | May 5, 2007 5:28 PM
Posted on May 5, 2007 17:28
I'm giving you a great big hug right now, ok?
Posted by D-Man | May 4, 2007 11:49 PM
Posted on May 4, 2007 23:49
Ah, honey.....my thoughts and arms go out to you. Thinking of you and wishing you happy days.
Posted by Lewis | May 4, 2007 8:04 PM
Posted on May 4, 2007 20:04
Someday we'll dissolve into the primordial background matter from whence we came. And once again, we'll be a part of everything. I’ll be missed up in you, and you’ll be mixed up in me. That sounds pleasing to me.
Posted by will | May 4, 2007 3:37 PM
Posted on May 4, 2007 15:37
Odd -- the same mood swept over us at the same time. this is great music. fits the day.
Posted by will | May 4, 2007 3:33 PM
Posted on May 4, 2007 15:33
I think there is only perceived truth created within our own realm which we create. Looking around and conversing with others tells you that not everyone has the same truth.
I believe in the infinite. There are an infinite number of truths which would make us all original.
Ha! And I'm not even high!
It's great that you are able to appreciate things outside of yourself. That is a rare gift.
Have a great weekend as well.
Posted by Howard | May 4, 2007 1:36 PM
Posted on May 4, 2007 13:36