All Things But None

In-Between Thoughts
Where are you?
Where would you like me to be?
I just want you to be near me!
You're fine as you are. You don't need anyone else but yourself.
Maybe, but I need something... seems like all my life I've been searching, and waiting...
For what?
Something... I dunno. Wait, I can't see you... Where'd you go?
I'm right here.
I still can't see you...
There's no need for you to see me.
I feel your presence...
And I feel yours, too.
At times I feel so stagnant... sometimes I just want to hide from everything and everyone.
You are all created to feel so many wonderful things.
Sometimes I feel like this place isn't for me...
Where else would you be?
It's not what I expected…
Everyone plays a vital part. Every one.
Why the suffering?
It's as perfect as it can be.
Why can't I be... rich? Or successful?
The same reason why you're not rich, or successful.
Sometimes, I feel a little… sad… not grieve, but just - sad…
You feel the way you are, you are the way you feel. But it's beyond that, too.
I have so many questions but...
And you want to know the ultimate Truth?
No, well yes... but, no, nevermind! Wait, what if I said YES?
Then the truth you shall have. But what makes you want to believe what I am about to tell you?
Hmm...
That is, if you can comprehend such a thing as - the Truth. But most likely, you probably have your own interpretation on what Truth is already.
I guess.
You're not the question nor the answer.
I question about a lot of... things...
But you are here for a reason.
I think I know what it is.
You only think you know what it is!
That's so unfair... will I ever find out?
Soon.
You play stupid games and people get tired of it!!
It seems that way, and I've been told that many times indeed.
What's the point of all THIS?
The reason will come to you some day when you least expect it.
I thought I can trust you but...
People don't understand.
Understand what?
The heart.
What about it?
People seek, but they do not want to learn.
Why not?
People do not want to learn when they think they already knew.
When will I truly know?
When you pass on.
Well shit, I'll never find out then in this lifetime.
There's nothing for you to find, only to learn, and to share what you've learned.
Y'know, people have doubts in you!
And that they shall. A free mind is a powerful thing.
What about love?
It's all around you. Even now.
At times, I'm so tired of this… tired of... being... just being...
Be patient. It'll come to you in time.
Yeah, whatever!
When you were born, you became - unclean.
Say what?
So all your life you keep trying, yet you'll never be the same, and that alone, is part of the reason why you're here.
…
Time will tell all.
I wish you would just go away…
Would that be a good thing?
I'll take my chances!
The true eyes and ears are through one's heart.
Easy for you to say!! I'm leaving!
Remember, while you're here, everything is yours and isn't. You are your own destiny - be with it.
…
...and Ill see you again.

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Silly me! The above 'conversation' was written back in May 27, 2003. And now, almost 6 years later... The man in behind the mirror...... Have I changed much? I was re-reading some of my old entries and some made me happy and smilin', yet some made me sad...

Well, that's life for you innit?

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